Friday, November 19, 2010

Faith

There is a reason we are using the name Faith as a middle name for Brooklyn.
These days we are using a lot of it.
5 days ago I went to the doctors with a lot of braxton hick thinking it was not a big deal.
It was.
I tested positive on a test that predicts labor early.
I took 6 of these tests with Weston. They all came back negative.
The doctor told me that they would do another cause she believed it was a false-positive.
She was wrong.
It came back positive.
Today I was back in the hospital receiving shots to help our little girls lungs develop faster in case she comes early.
Right now I am only 27 weeks and she weighs less than 3 pounds.
13 more weeks to go.
I am scared to death to be honest.
I have guilt because all Weston is doing all day is watching tv cause I am stuck on a couch on my left side to keep my contractions under control.
He is in heaven though. He gets to watch Cars, Finding Nemo and Toy Story as much as he wants.
I tell him to bring me my phone, blankets, mommy's books and he hasn't failed me once. He is a huge reason why I am staying sane while I am on the couch. He is so much happier since his surgery last week. THANK GOODNESS. I love him more than life.
I haven't even thought about preparing for Brooklyn's arrival. I still have so much to do.
Thank goodness for online shopping and a mother in law who is more than willing to shop for her grand daughter.
My husband has done more for me in the past 5 days that I can comprehend. I am realizing how much he does love me and our family.
He tells me he doesn't understand how I do it everyday. That brings a smile to my face.
However, I will do everything to keep this little girl within my as long as possible
Priesthood blessings are what I am relying on right now.
They are more powerful than medicine.
That and Faith.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

"So often in life we think that because we have done things in a certain way, certain results should follow. But life is like the ocean. Sometimes we get caught in squalls & storms & things don't go the way we think they should, even when we think we have done right. But God can find us in the eye of a storm and give us courage to swim in rough water. We learn lessons from storms that we cannot learn from calm seas Sometimes the Lord calms the storm and sometimes He lets the storm rage and calms his child." -John H. Groberg