WARNING:
This post has no pictures besides the cute on above, and is mainly a rambling of all my emotions and thoughts right now.....prepare for a lengthy rambling of an emotional pregnant woman. For 2 years this little guy has been my world and my life has revolved around him night and day. I never knew the amount of love and joy I could feel until the moment I held him in my arms and realized that he was my son.
Within the next couple of days I will be holding my baby girl in my arms and to be honest I have so many emotions going through my heart.
Thrilled beyond words to experience the joys of having and raising a beautiful Child of God.
Thrilled to finally be off of bed rest. 10 weeks of lying around doing very little can emotionally and physically be draining. I feel beyond blessed to have made it this far. I have fallen more in love with my husband these past 2 months than I ever thought I could, and it is all because he has gone above and beyond taking care of me and his family. My inlaws have been so patient and loving also and it truly has been a blessing living with them during this trial in our lives. However, for the sake of everyone in this house, we are all ready for this to be over with.
I am thrilled to dress up Brooklyn in all the cute outfits, hair bows, and dresses I have been dying to get out of the closet for 8 months. Tea parties, dolls, pink, and princesses are right up my alley!
On the flip side, I am scared to death of the delivery/recovery side of birth. Labor wasn't kind to me with Weston and the recovery was nothing short of shocking. And let me tell you, those emotions after birth are oh so tricky sometimes. Let's hope everyone is right when they say the 2nd is a lot easier.
I am nervous of the transition from 1 to 2 kids. Last night I was cuddled next to Weston reading
him books and I had a moment when it hit me that he will no longer be my little boy. Those golden moments I had one on one time with him, I will now have to sneak in. I will be honest when I say I am going to miss it just being me and him.
I am also nervous at how Weston will take having a little girl steal all his thunder. I am expecting some meltdowns here and there with the lack of "the world revolves around me" attention he is use to getting from everyone who lays eyes on him. We gave him a doll last week to help him prepare for a baby being in his life in a few short days. Besides poking her eyes out, throwing her in the bathtub, and swinging the doll by the legs he was also very gentle when he pretended to push her in her swing and I even caught him rocking her in his arms. SO CUTE! And he was so thrilled when I asked him to get me a diaper and to help change her.....moments like that give me hope that he may fall in love with her quicker that I think.
I have a feeling my time management skills are going to be tested also. I haven't been the best at managing me time, and I will be honest when I say that Weston has spoiled me with my "me time" for a while. No more sleeping in, no more long hot showers when I need them, and I will probably be happy if I remember to brush my teeth in the morning. However, that is reality when it comes to being a mother and its all worth it....I know that 100 percent.
I know all these emotions are normal, and I am sure every mother goes through these worries and anticipations right before birth. I will soon have twice the love, twice the worry, twice the joy, twice the tears, and twice the laughter. I know that I am so blessed with a beautiful family who I love so deeply and just when I thought my heart cannot get any bigger I am going to be ready for that happiness that is going to make my heart want to explode with love for this little girl!
In the meantime, the countdown has begun.....2 more days and she is in the clear to come !!!!!!!
